What To Do?!?

"Don't sweat the small stuff"

This is something that friends and family have told me during this entire wedding planning process and I have taken it to heart. I feel like I have done a pretty darn good job at not sweating over anything small. I even remind myself that if something doesn't happen it won't be a big deal because I will be the only one who notices.

Well, I have fallen off of my horse and I am struggling to climb back up!

As you know from my recent posts I am trying to find a Lutheran pastor to marry us since my pastor is now being deployed for the next 8 months (see here and here). Let's put it this way- if I were a baseball player I would have just struck out (I am just full of similes and such). So far I am batting a thousand because I have been denied by three different pastors due to scheduling issues, conflicting church services, etc.

I am trying to stay calm but let's face it, a pastor is not a small detail. Future hubby and I can't walk down the aisle and just stare at each other with googly eyes without having someone lead the ceremony (well we could but it would be very awkward and quiet). I have spent the last two days bursting into tears at various times because this is really starting to stress me out. I am starting to run out of pastors to contact. I resorted to contacting a pastor today that I don't even know which isn't unheard of but not what I wanted. He is the Lutheran pastor of a church that I want to start attending so I figured why not!? I have not heard back from him yet but I am just saying prayer after prayer to God asking for help.

My mom keeps reminding me that God has His own plan for us. She said that maybe God is trying to tell me that He wants me to start going to this new church. If this pastor says yes I am definitely taking it as a sign. Even if this pastor says no I will still attend this church.

I know that I have 3 months left but time is a ticking! I am going to try my hardest to put this into God's hands and not stress but human nature has left me as a basket case. So bare with my posting or lack of posting until this situation gets resolved. I hope to have good news to report back to you!