Tuesday, April 21, 2009

On My Mind.....

Has this happened/is this happening to any of you? As of tomorrow we are exactly 4 months away from our wedding and I couldn't be more excited! But as each day passes and we draw closer and closer I can't help but have this fear in the back of my mind that something could happen. I am not talking about my dress not fitting (yes, that is a fear but not this fear) or the color of the napkins not matching perfectly. I am scared that something could happen to the future hubby or a family member. I think that part of the issue is that our wedding is supposed to be the happiest day of our life up to this point in our lives and we get so built up as the day draws closer. We want the day to be perfect!

I was reading the newspaper yesterday and was reminded how short life can be (I really need to stop reading the news, the media loves to prey on tragedy). There was a story in our local newspaper about a man, a year younger than me, who was playing co-ed softball. He slid into home plate and the throw down hit him in the neck. He stood up and immediately collapsed. At the hospital they determined that he was brain dead. A person commented on the article and it was what they said that hit me the hardest. They said, "It really is true that no one young or old is guaranteed to come home at the end of each day--love and appreciate your loved ones while they are alive because it might be the last time you see them." That comment really made me think hard and scared the living crap out of me. I am a worry wort by nature but I try to take things in stride one day at a time but I still have this fear in the back of my mind. All I can do is say a little prayer to God and put it in His hands. Oh, and I am going to quit reading the news because it is too depressing!

Am I neurotic or do/did you ever have this fear before your wedding?!? (According to my family I am just neurotic....lol).

Sorry for the depressing post but I had to get this off of my mind. To make up for the heavy post, here is a pretty picture:

11 comments:

Adrienne said...

I worry about that stuff too. It is probably something that we will always worry about, especially after we have kids. I think the only thing we can do is try to focus on what we have now and try not to worry about the unknown because we could just make ourselves sick with it. Easier said than done, I know. Hopefully you are thinking happy thoughts again soon! :)

Lindsey said...

Oh goodness, I had all those fears too. I think it's normal when you're under so much stress.

Newport Nuptials said...

I think it's normal,I think about it too. More so now that the wedding is being planned. I so,etimes htink everyhting is going so perfectly that something bad must happen. Then I tell myself to calm down and just enjoy the happiness!

Jenny.Lee said...

I agree with all the ladies above. Take a deep breath and relax. :) (Try to at least.)

Liz @ McFargan: A Midwestern Matrimony said...

I know your fear. My dad has been in the hospital the past weekend after having surgery to remove his kidney and a large tumor. His diagnosis was on the day of my first dress fitting, and I picked up my dress the day he had his surgery. It was definitely the first thing in my mind "Oh my God, what if it's cancerous, what if he doesn't make it. This will be fresh in my mind at the wedding". It's frustrating to find yourself putting the wedding into the context of everything - such as caring for your loved ones. But I think it is natural. You're not crazy.

But also know that things work out. God will take care of you and those you love and his will will be done in your life.

Future Mrs. H said...

I worry every day about that... and pray every night that all of our loved ones make it to our wedding day! I am a huge worrywart though, and can't help letting my mind wander to that dark place where I stress about my ailing Grandma making it to October. =0(

Mara (The Wedding Cabaret) said...

It's normal.. i went through the same thing..

Christine said...

As you already read: you're not alone. I have/had those fears,too. We're already married but the fears last...

Hannah Noel said...

Oh I worry about that often, regardless of the wedding.
Mr. AF lives a 9 hour drive away from me, and I worry all the time that something will happen to him and I won't have any way of knowing he is hurt or worse. It terrifies me if I go for hours and hours without hearing from him!
In turn, that makes me worry about my family too. I hate worrying~

Jessie said...

I have fears like that too. And I think they won't go away after the wedding. You know when you have kids and stuff. But I seriously told myself too to stop reading the news. I get depressed and worried when I do that.

Goldie said...

Your post definitely hit home with me. This is something I think about all the time and if focused on for too long, can truly spoil my mood. I don't think there's anything to stop the worrying 100% but you are not alone.